Contentedness

This is a 5 Year Journal post. The goal is to answer a simple journal prompt each day of the year as a real record of daily life in this moment. 

January 3 - Are you content?

This is SUCH a loaded question for me and the answer has so many layers that I am feeling exhausted just thinking about them. I think the short answer would be: I am content for periods of time and in certain compartments of my life, but childlessness is such a gaping hole in my core that it (at least for the foreseeable future) and contentedness are absolutely incompatible.