Part 1: March 4th

Today is the day I may become an aunt. Today I am also mourning the loss of my children. I have so many mixed emotions - which is good - because for months I have had only negative emotions about this. But I'm still so desperately sad. I'm still grieving.

A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then, it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

-Cosmic Love by Florence + the Machine